I was borned with sensitive eyes. I could not open my eyes when I was a infant. There were sticky substance coming and causing me to have problems opening my eyes.

You had to relieve my pain by licking away the sticky substance so that I can open my eyes without pain. You took great pains to bring up me and my bro. I really appreciate it.

I know you and Dad work harder than anyone to give us a good life. That is why I've always respect all 2. I never show it out, but deep down in my heart I appreciate.

I know you adore bro more than me, I hate to say this but you are BIASED. The countless of quarrels and fights we had are all because of this issue. Dad talked to me. He told me how you took care of me and that you love me too. I tried to convince myself to believe it. I believe you can see clearly that I always chose to keep quiet when you scold me. I will always tell myself, you are my Mum. You work in the day and you got to rush home to cook dinner and wash up after everything. Yes, I know you take real good care of us. Me and my bro do not need to do housework at all. Im really glad that I have a Mum who is so willing to do this for us.

I know you may have some mood swings and you will nag at me. Ok, I accept. You said that girls should learn to do housework. Fine, I accept. But till date, you still have not given me any reason why bro does not need to do anything?

You said Im petty, I've got only one bro yet I cant accept that. Mum, you gotta know that when dealing with human, you got to be FAIR. When I answer you back, you say I talk back. When bro answer you back, you keep quiet.

I do, you scold. I dont, you scold. What is it that you want?

Sometimes I kept thinking I cant bear to leave this home. I've got so much fun moments here. But, since last night's issue, I cant wait to leave. Really.

I do what you want, and you had to scold me for always not doing it. What is it that Im wrong?
I merely replied saying am I not doing it now? You had to flare up like a crazy woman. You scold and scold and scold NON-STOP. I kept quiet already. But please, I have my limitations too. I retaliate and you said I was RUDE. Dad asked me to SHUT UP, dont quarrel. Just give in to her.

Come'on, Im not doing anything wrong in the first place, why should I? Everyone have to scream at me just because I did something right? FUCK MAN.

My tears are dripping on the keyboard as I type this blog entry. I'm hurt. Really.

Ask yourself, which of your children remembers your birthdays without fail yearly? Who is the one who runs all errands for you all? Who is the one who take care of you son when you 2 are overseas or out?

When I'm sick, do you even ask? Mum, ask yourself. Are you way too biased? Just because I dont say anything doesnt mean I don care. It does not mean that you can just continue to hurt me.

When your son is sick, you get so anxious about that little cold he has. When I'm sick, running with high fever with possibility of dengue, your hurtful comment was " so weak meh?"
I still chose to keep quiet. Dad will tell me to go see Doc. And he will ask how are you? feeling better le?

That is why I always respect my Dad. He work hard through his younger days, holding on to 2 jobs or even 3 to give us a good life. We were very poor back then. I still remember that our electricity was cut off on due to us having no money to pay the electricity bill. During Chinese New Year, everyone have new clothes to wear but we have to wear old clothes handed down.

It was until when I was 12 yrs old, we started to have a better life. Dad's hard work got recognized and he got promoted. Dad always have to work 200% harder than everyone. But no complains from him.

Until today, Dad's career is finally up and he has a stable and good income. Basically, we have no worries on financial issues, but Dad do not spend unneccesarily.

Dad, I've always respect you and I love you for all the great things you've done.

Mum, come to think of it, I think both of us have the same stubborn character. But i still love you for your givings and all. But still, I cant get rid of the bad feeling I have though I try to bury it deep down in my heart.