Its d long weekend which i absolutely love cos i get to stay another day at teck whye... Thurs to mon seems so fast but mon - thurs at buangkok seems sooooo slow...

Its only after i get married n move out, i realised the love my parents shower on me, the good n healthy food my mum cook. And of cos, the company of my lovely doggies.

When i use to have baby boy by my side, i did not treasure d timed with him, often leaving him alone at hm. Thinking back, i feel so cheebye for doing so! Sighz. Whats done cannot be undone. Now i try not to go out unless necessary when im back at teck whye.. So i dont waste any time that is catered to spend with them n my parents.

Sorry darling boy, i've failed miserably as a owner n someone u love...

Damn.. Tears always roll down my cheeks when i think of u...


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I believe only 1 out of 10 DIL will have a good relationship with their MIL especially so when your MIL has got 3 or rather, 4 daughters!

Today, I would like to pen down why I hate/ dislike my MIL so much. This is from the bottom of my heart. U can call me stingy, revengeful la, whatever!

Me n bun were together since 2001. At first, the relationship was pretty ok for me n his mum, calling her Auntie then. I would go to his house everyday and when bun went for NS, i would still go to his house after school to play mahjong with his mum n frens. his mum would call me to ask if i ate already n stuffs like that...

but when baby boy came to me in 2004, i never go to their house as many times as before. everyday after school, i would rush home to be with my baby boy. my life revolves around baby boy only! bun then came to stay at my house from mons - suns. last time, we still use to go back every sat to stay at his place. maybe this is when turns started to change; maybe his mum felt that she lost her son totally.

around this time, his dad said he wanted to sell the house to bun. bun just started working only. their house was fully paid for already. i raised my objections! how is bun gonna pay for the house! his starting pay was so miserable and WHY take a loan again just because his dad wants cash?

still, they went ahead, i wasnt in much position to say anything. so be it. i remembered vividly, when he had 100k in their pocket, they gave bun 15k in cash. once, bun told his mum he wanted to buy a computer and u know what she said? i remembered it word for word! "You buy the computer and put at Yvonne's house, are you mad?" i almost went crazy i tell ya! HELLO! U mean my dad dont have $ to buy computer for us, need u to buy ah? I screamed at bun and told him that dont think ur mum got abit of smelly money, wanna act like rich pple la! KNN. These money are loan one !!! wah, this one really make my blood boil!

Soon, the money was spent. his mum start to nag say his dad gambled all the money away, which is EXPECTED. nothing to be surprised! so they were back to the square one. Then in 2007, we told them we wanted to get married. we were penniless too. his parents duno go where borrow $3,000 and gave us. i thought, its just $3k, but well, they really dont have money, so we got to save.

I didnt expect his son or his family to pay for every damn thing! we started to save money. we were really thrifty! i just started working in Decal. we saved as much as we can and finally we saved a certain amount enough to get married budgetly. Im ok, seriously i dont mind to get married in a restaurant, no honeymoon. Guess what the mum did? she said she got no money to buy me 4 gold. I HAD to borrow from my fren the 4 gold and lie to my parents that its bought by them. HAHA. what a joke! thinking back, it felt so shameful, why on earth did I accept it? i love my bun? haha.. maybe.. so the mum mian qiang bought a thin braclet for me, those that u buy for kids one. im ok... nvm.. u got no money mah, but got money to gamble la.

the parents did not participate in the preparation at ALL. its all my parents. the bridal shop gave my mum n his each a evening gown for the dinner, so got to choose. the mum die die dont wan to choose say she look fat and all. so she said she will wear her clothes. FINE. on the day, she wore a simple dress with a top while my mum is all dressed up as chio as she can be. we've got guest asking my mum, why the groom's mum dress until so casually? HAHA. JOKE!

the crazy parents actually book a bus for the neighbours at their area to fetch them to n fro from the banquet and ask us to pay. FINE. after the dinner, the parents left and asked bun for money to take cab home. HAHA. my parents are the one who stayed behind and help us settle the bills and feedbacks and everything! i told my hub, what parents is that? they r the guys side and they can happily leave after the banquet? HAHA. Really is damn shameful.

So, on the first night at their place, i cried. i miss my home, my parents, my dogs. Oh u know what, the mum tried to showed me her MIL POWER first by telling bun to inform me, she will NOT wash my clothes. I got to wash myself. So everyday after work, i hand wash my pants, blouse, bra and panties and hang everything inside our room. HAHA. i felt like i was a tenant there. thinking back, i felt so "wei qu", why did i swallow my pride? where did i find the courage from? The mum can happily wash the clothes of the sister's kids and the sister's whereby they are not staying together but she canot wash mine. LOL. Joke joke joke!!!!!

Tell me, where went wrong? M i wrong to bear a grudge against this bitch? Ever since we moved to buangkok, things started to change also. i showed the sister what is MY house and not your MOTHER'S house. so she stopped bringing clothes over to wash after i told the MIL that she shouldnt be doing so. man, it caused alot of friction. but who cares? I had enough.

I am no longer that Yvonne who gives in cos I only treat those who treat me with respect and love, like my family and bun.

Its 1.45am now and I cant sleep. Sighz. Was feeling mad hungry and just had a bowl of Myojo Thai Tom Yum noodles.

Back is aching.
Cant slp.
Miss my wawas.
Still hungry.
Worry whether J'don will come out as a healthy boy.
Seriously, one of my biggest worry is birthmarks. Cos i have a very big one at my back.. So i tried to keep to all the pantang beliefs... *pray*

We went to FGH last sunday to pray to 4 face buddha as instructed by Ah Chan Ek. We thanked buddha for blessing and protecting me throughout this pregnancy and hope he continues to shower J'don with blessings. Also buddha blessed hubby in earning more money to support me throughout my jobless dayssss...

I will bring J to FGH to bai bai and see ah chan ek and also to the thai temple at bt merah to return the blessings they gave to him and our family.



Oh ya, if u have noticed, we have changed lil' Bun's name to J'don Chew my parents say Nathaniel sounds like Nutella which I think its damn kua zhang! haha! but well.. both me and bun prefer J'don though it may sounds common but the spelling is damn unique! Maybe we can call his lil' bro J'vis or something IF i decide to have a 2nd one! Hurhur.

That day i was jokingly telling bun that I will ask doc wong to "tie" for me after i give birth, haha. he raised his voice and told me dont anyhow say! lol. cos he wanna have 2, 3, 4 , 5 kids...

my eyes immediately widen and i was like asking him:"u think im a SOW ah?!" LOL. MAXIMUM 2 only horrrr... haha..

Its august already, time flies and J will b out very soon in probably 3 - 4 weeks time! I really hope he comes out slightly earlier cos I cant stand d stomach bump and the pain on my pelvics! And yes, i will be getting the admission letter nx appt ! yippie! and my hospital bag is 80% packed! =))

Shall update again..